Tired, Discouraged, and Weary

For those of you who actually keep up with my blog (potentially better than I do), I am asking for prayer.

I have hit a point where I'm tired of the way things are going in my workplace. I'm disappointed that people who call themselves Christians aren't acting like it. There should be no cliques or a feeling that one is holier than another or that they know more than someone else (and aren't afraid to let that other person know). It just stinks that people aren't really living out what they believe. We're supposed to be examples for students- yet what are we expecting of them when we're no different than the world, or we handle things no differently than the world.

I have become very weary in enduring all that is going on around me. I come home from work just frazzled because of the things that go on. There seems to be so much secrecy this year. There are also many divisions which is difficult too.

I don't even really know how to put into words what's going on in my head.

Please pray for the favoritism and partiality to die away. I really thought that when I took a job working with Christians that there would be no politics in the workplace. It's just as prevalent in the Christian circles as it is in the secular circles. Aren't we supposed to be different? To think, live and even work different?

Office politics are something I would expect from and have experienced (a lot) in secular circles. Why have Christians let it penetrate their workplaces?

To give you an idea of just how much we are around our fellow co-workers a day tends to go like this: Many of us either live with another teacher or live very near to other teachers, we all ride into school together, we work all day together, we all ride home together (sometimes this takes about 45 minutes- if not longer), then we go back to live with each other. We also almost all go to the same church, share a lot of the same friends, are involved in other activities in and out of school that require us to be together.

So, when there are divisions within the staff, there are cliques formed, or partiality is shown it hurts the group as a whole.

If you'd like to know more specifically what's weighing me down, I will tell you- I just don't feel it needs to go up here.

Pray for me, too, because I've hit the point where I love what I do- but working where I work is extremely difficult. It's usually a challenge to get up every morning to go to work. Matt and I are both signed on for next year and I just keep praying- that at least for me- that it wasn't a mistake.

Pray for strength, wisdom (especially on which issues need addressed and which I need to just let rest), and encouragement from outside the workplace (because it's definitely not coming from within it), and anything else that God lays on your heart to pray for us about.

God Bless.