Some Verses on My Mind

There are so many times in life where hindsight has makes our inadequacy in the Lord's eyes shine back in our own. I was really hit with some verses last night at the chapel service. These are verses I grew up knowing, yet I didn't listen. I am stubborn enough to think that I could do things on my own, without God or anyone else. Man was I wrong.

Proverbs 31:25
Strength and dignity are her clothing,And she smiles at the future.

Proverbs 4:23
Watch over your heart with all diligence, For from it flow the springs of life.

2 Corinthians 6:11-18
11Our mouth has spoken freely to you, O Corinthians, our heart is opened wide.
12You are not restrained by us, but you are restrained in your own affections.
13Now in a like exchange--I speak as to children--open wide to us also.
14Do not be bound together with unbelievers; for what partnership have righteousness and lawlessness, or what fellowship has light with darkness?
15Or what harmony has Christ with Belial, or what has a believer in common with an unbeliever? 16Or what agreement has the temple of God with idols? For we are he temple of the living God; just as God said, "I WILL DWELL IN THEM AND WALK AMONG THEM;AND I WILL BE THEIR GOD, AND THEY SHALL BE MY PEOPLE. 17 "Therefore, COME OUT FROM THEIR MIDST AND BE SEPARATE," says the Lord."AND DO NOT TOUCH WHAT IS UNCLEAN;And I will welcome you.18"And I will be a father to you, And you shall be sons and daughters to Me," Says the Lord Almighty.

I am very thankful that I am not the only person who was foolish and did not follow this. Although unrealistic, I hope that I am the last person to have done this as well. I let the very core of me almost totally die away because I was too busy being selfish and not caring about what God had for me.

Praise the Lord we sometimes get in situations so deep where all we can do is take it to Him. All we can do is tell Him that we cannot continue the way we are, yet we are not strong enough to end it, and that we give it to Him. God is just, merciful, and loving. The moment we recognise that, He says 'Okay' and it is done. That's how it was for me.

Many people have been asking how I ended up in Korea; so here is the story.

I had gotten to this point in my life that I just wrote about. I was in a situation so deep, and I knew it was not a productive or Godly situation, yet I didn't have the strength to continue it. I was standing in church on May 22 (mind you, this was probably the third time I had been in church in about two years consistently), I do not remember the message that was being preached, because God was working on a totally different area of my life; my heart. I got to the point that morning where I broke. I was standing in the pew in church praying and I told the Lord that I didn't have the strength to continue on in my situation. I couldn't go on, and no matter how much I knew I had to, I couldn't end it either. I just wasn't strong enough. I told Him, to take it and do what He wanted to do with it. I knew what I thought I wanted with it, I wanted to keep myself in the situation, but God didn't want that. Not even 24 hours later, around 8:30AM, May 23, my situation was resolved; it was over. That was all God, there's no way that was anything else, not a coincidence, just the grace of God.

After talking with Aimee about the time I was having job hunting, she told me that the school she had been offered a job in had a High School English position open and that I should apply. I tossed it back and forth in my head for a while and I finally applied. By the time I was done with the application process, the position had been filled.

Mr. Peterson (my principal) had called my parent's house and my cell phone twice each on the night of June 6 to set up an interview with me. My interview was the next day, June 7 (which was a significant date with situation that I was previously in, you may ask for more details if you are curious) , I was offered the job two days later and accepted the position on June 10.

Honestly, God grabbed a hold of me on May 22 when I walked into church. I was not expecting to have some sort of major God-experience when I went to church. It was truly God at work that morning. He was doing something major to get me where I am today, where I should have been a long time before now.

Praise the Lord for His graciousness and love. Praise the Lord for the strength He gives me when I am weak; for in my weakness, He is made strong. Praise the Lord for the trials he has put in my path to refine me and renew me daily. Praise the Lord!